Jul 15
ask for advice
Assalamu Alaikum, ShaykhI wanted to seek your sincere advice and duas because I have been feeling overwhelmed, and it seems as though one difficulty after another has been coming into our lives. I feel like I am in despair. Our family has been facing a number of challenges recently. We have had several unexpected problems around the house that have placed additional financial strain on us. While each issue may seem small on its own, together they have become quite difficult to manage.My mother has also been struggling with her health. She is a breast cancer survivor and has undergone surgery for it, as well as another major surgery. Lately, she has been experiencing constant pain and an intense burning sensation throughout her body. The doctors have said that it is not an allergy and believe it may be related to hormonal imbalance resulting from her surgeries. It is heartbreaking to see her suffer every day.My father works abroad and has always tried his best to provide for our family. Unfortunately, he lost his previous job because the company he worked for was not doing well. He recently started a new job, but the salary is very low, and even that is not paid regularly or on time. As if that were not enough, the building where he currently lives is expected to be demolished, so he and my uncle now have to look for another place to stay. Rent in other areas is much higher, which will place even more financial pressure on us. My father has asked us not to tell my mother because he fears that the stress would worsen her health.Financially, things have become very difficult, and I honestly do not know what to do.As for myself, I feel completely lost. I have not secured admission anywhere, and I have not prepared for university admissions either, even though my father advised me to keep that option open. I constantly feel that I am not capable enough, and I carry a deep sense of guilt because so much money is being spent on me while I have nothing to show for it.This year will be my second and final attempt at the medical admission test. After this, I will no longer be eligible to take it. Becoming a doctor has been my dream since childhood, yet I struggle greatly with procrastination, and I often feel that I am standing in the way of my own success.Spiritually, I also feel weak. I do try to worship Allah, but I constantly feel that my worship is not enough. I frequently miss Fajr prayer, and that fills me with guilt. I keep wondering whether I am falling short in my relationship with Allah.Shaykh, I feel helpless, frightened, and uncertain about the future. Sometimes I feel crushed by guilt and worry, and I do not know how to balance hope in Allah's mercy with the fear that I am not doing enough. I sincerely ask for your advice on how I should navigate these trials, strengthen my iman, overcome my procrastination, and place my trust in Allah while continuing to fulfil my responsibilities.I would be deeply grateful if you could remember me, my parents, and my entire family in your duas. May Allah make a way out for us from every hardship.JazakAllahu Khayran.
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